Today we had exams. They weren't really that big of a deal. I've had my mind on other things. I can't get my mind off church last night. So many things happened. Things I never thought would happen. The pastor is amazing. Afterwards, I was sitting alone waiting for my ride. He came up and sat next to me and asked what was wrong. He is such a nice guy. Fun, too.
I was supposed to go to the beach after school today. Those plans got cancelled. I might go to the football game. I want--no--need something to happen to spice up my life.
I fear my parents may think my not liking being at home is their doing. Usually it's not. I cannot explain why I do not like it here, but I will try. I feel boxed. Trapped. Sometimes lonely. And sometimes when I'm here all I can do is think. Thinking is what I try to avoid doing too much of. Thinking leads to bad things for me if I have too much time to do it. I really need to get out of my head.
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